Wednesday, February 23, 2011
Wadeva. Life sucks. that's all i have to say. I have totally no idea why my mom has been picking on me, i have no idea why my life has been made so difficult, and i have totally NO IDEA WHY MY LIFE MUST BE LIKE THIS.
Hey, havent you people heard of something called equality? Yeah, it means that everyone is the same, and noone should be ostracized. But i think that most of today's people have no idea what the freak that actually means. You ostracize, and you judge. Dont you people actually know what "dont judge a book by its cover" mean?
Man, i am getting tired of this. Im very, very tired... i dont feel part of this world... and i know one day i will perish and no one will actually realise that im gone. Cuz everyone is so caught up with ostracizing me, they wont even notice that im gone. In fact, even if they do, they will feel happy. I cant wait to disappear. i really wish that my life was better. I dont deserve this. I have done NOTHING to deserve this.
I tried to make everyone happy. I did. But they just dont see it, dont appreciate it. Nobody cares. Nobody. Its always just me, myself and i. My masks cant last forever. The happy and confident front that i put up will eventually crumble... but why am i left alone to pick up those sharp shards that is left?
People who appreciate dont come by easily. Even if they do come by, something will definitely come and snatch it away. Even as i type these words on my computer, i know some who are reading this are very, very happy.
I used to cut myself. I feel like returning to that. No one will notice. I just have to use that physical pain to quell the emotional one. Its unfair. Why do i have to go through this? I don't get it...
So...
When...
Will i be able to break free from all of this?
Hey, havent you people heard of something called equality? Yeah, it means that everyone is the same, and noone should be ostracized. But i think that most of today's people have no idea what the freak that actually means. You ostracize, and you judge. Dont you people actually know what "dont judge a book by its cover" mean?
Man, i am getting tired of this. Im very, very tired... i dont feel part of this world... and i know one day i will perish and no one will actually realise that im gone. Cuz everyone is so caught up with ostracizing me, they wont even notice that im gone. In fact, even if they do, they will feel happy. I cant wait to disappear. i really wish that my life was better. I dont deserve this. I have done NOTHING to deserve this.
I tried to make everyone happy. I did. But they just dont see it, dont appreciate it. Nobody cares. Nobody. Its always just me, myself and i. My masks cant last forever. The happy and confident front that i put up will eventually crumble... but why am i left alone to pick up those sharp shards that is left?
People who appreciate dont come by easily. Even if they do come by, something will definitely come and snatch it away. Even as i type these words on my computer, i know some who are reading this are very, very happy.
I used to cut myself. I feel like returning to that. No one will notice. I just have to use that physical pain to quell the emotional one. Its unfair. Why do i have to go through this? I don't get it...
So...
When...
Will i be able to break free from all of this?
Loving Hikachu~, 6:07 AM.
